Busy life

When life keeps you busy you just gotta go with it. I am currently on mid break from uni in Sydney and traveling around Australia, which is why I haven’t posted anything in a while.

I am happy and enjoying my life and will make posts as soon as I get back to my computer and have time for it.

In the meantime – remember to be happy. If you want to laugh do it, don’t let people tell you what you can and can’t do. 😘


When things seems unreal

That feeling of : “no this can’t be real. Can I be this? No it can’t be real!”

I had that feeling today. It seems so unreal everything happening around me.

In the past 3 years I have been across the globe and back. I’ve been so many places and I can honestly say I’ve been complete in it and happy with it. I have not done anything I would regret or trade for anything. What I have done since my husband died has all been for me – to take my mind to the state of ME and the new ME!

But still I get the feeling that all of this can’t be real. How can I deserve this? How can I be this lucky?

It hit me full on in the train going to the airport. I looked at the Opera House in Sydney out of the train. In that second my life made me loose my breath. How can your life make you loose your breath!? I honestly don’t know. But in that moment, for 10 seconds, I was the happiest I had been in a long time. I was in the most safe place in a long time. I was in complete and utterly peace! WOW!

Take a look around you – take a deep breath – think of what has happened and was is ahead of you. Think of how lucky you are to be alive. Think of how fast it can be taken away. Think of what you have been through. Think of where it had taken you.

Look at where you are! Inhale the pain and exhale the love! ❤️

Feeling alone?

Feeling alone?

We can have all the best people around us in the world but still sometimes feel like we are alone.

We have to be able to zone out and be who we are. I have the feeling of being alone sometimes. It doesn’t mean I am depressed or whatever some people might call it. It just mean I need to focus on myself for a little bit. Sometimes I need people around me when I feel alone and sometimes I just need to be myself. No matter how I feel I need to be able to speak up and tell the people around me what I want. If I want to be alone I won’t answer any texts or maybe just very few people. If I want to hang out with someone I have to say something.

It is not always that easy to speak out. You sometimes just want people to read your mind! Oh how life would be easy if others could read your mind and the other way around.

When I do feel alone I try to remind myself of all the good things I have in life. The things I have been through has made me stronger. Loosing my husband, almost loosing my mom just after and my dad before that to be honest – it has all given me scars but scars I will never be without. It has shaped me to the one I am today. Some people might think I am a tough chick or a bitch or something even worse. But I know that they think that because they can’t put themselves in my shoes and don’t want them to. But when they do end up getting to know me they also see that I am not any of those words. I am strong and I am a very nice and genuine person. We all have things we need to work on our entire life. That is okay. We can’t stay they same – that would be a very sad situation. Things change and so do we.

Remember to say no and say yes and say what you want. I practice it every day – and I am still no master at it. No one will ever be!

Have a good day guys. You are all awesome!

Change your life

I was just reminded yesterday, that 3 years ago, I took the last decision to leave everything behind. I quit my job, decided to leave my apartement, sell all my things and go to Canada.

I have to say things really has taken a different direction since I lost my husband. I would change all of this I have today if I could get him back in a heartbeat. Would not take me a nano second to decide that. But I can’t change my past. I can’t change the fact that he died and therefor I decided to go one way – and that was forward! I decided to change my life. I decided to not be in a place where I could feel myself go down in a spiral. I wanted to go on with my life and I did.

Here I am in Sydney, I have been to Canada and completely changed my life.

I have a future that is full of love because Jonas taught me that real love exist. It is out there and I have experienced it. I will forever be grateful for what he gave me – and also this. He gave me this life. I know he wanted me to follow my heart like I have always done. I will forever love him!

When life gives you lemons – make lemonade. I am a living proof that it is actually the best way to live life. Get the best out of it.

You choose how to use your past in your future!

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Keep going

Keep going

Some days will always be a feeling of a big blank spot. Sometimes emotions overwhelm us and we need to recharge. I know I get that feeling. When I do get that feeling I start to read what I wrote a while back and I start reading quotes that are inspiring to me.

I read the post the hard truth I wrote just about 2 years ago. Back then I had just been dumped you might say, I was struggling with where I was, where I had been and where I was going. I noticed that I called myself naive when I read it today. Naive because I believed in the opportunities instead of the barriers. If believing that everything happens for a reason (sometimes the things happening aren’t good and we can’t really see why it happened) is being naive, then I am still naive. I still believe that we all go somewhere in life for a reason. I don’t believe there is one purpose for all of us or one specific plan. There is just some things we can’t change.

A few of my friends are currently sending me great news or sad news. I am so sorry for my friends going through hard times in their life but if I have learned something, it is that sometimes hard things need to happen for good things to appear.

I am overly happy and bubbling with joy that a few friends are doing what they dreamed of. And here I will say the name – Mira you are a freaking inspiration to me. With you being as strange and funky as me, maybe even more sometimes, I adore how you embrace life. You are starting your dream education soon and I can not be happier for you! You are such a spiritual person that, when you send me links and quotes, make me think “what the hell is this” and at the same time “wow that hit me in the right spot”. You know when you need a break and you are true to yourself. Keep it up – remember down times always brings good times afterwards. ❤

The post I wrote 2 years ago also got me thinking that I really have changed since then. I am a more happy person now. I still follow my dreams and I still believe that we all have control of our own lifes. I still believe that we need to be upset and happy when we feel like it. I let myself be upset when I am upset because I know my mind needs to go through the feeling. Don’t push feelings away – they will only come rolling back times a thousand. And be happy when you are happy. I know I can sometimes make people feel I am not on their level of happy or upset but that is because I can’t always relate. I do apologise for that but I will also say I will try to be better at saying when I don’t follow or can’t keep up.

I like to know the truth – and if someone has something they don’t like about me I want them to tell me. If I don’t know I can’t change it.

Sending love to everyone. Embrace your feelings. ❤